Hey, last night (nearer to morning actually, sometime during 6 am) I experienced something that I think is sleep paralysis. But the definition of sleep paralysis is so confused with REM Atonia and all that I can't be TOO sure if what I experienced was SP. Which is why I will recount what happened, and if you have the time, if you know what sleep paralysis feels like, will you please be kind enough to let me know if what I experienced was sleep paralysis? (Wow, that was wordy.) Thanks in advance! I REALLY appreciate it. ; D
So, I'm pretty sure it was SP. But just to be sure... here's how it went.
Sleep Prep
I was working on an essay for school, and spent till 10 PM finishing it up. Then I ate a whole banana (I heard it helps increase the vividness of dreams or whatever). Then I got into bed at around 11 PM.... I probably fell asleep sometime at 12 PM.
Sleep
So I slept. I was doing MILD... chanting "I want to have a lucid dream tonight!" to myself in my head, and before I knew it, I was asleep. I recall a pretty long dream (though it wasn't lucid).
Awakening
I woke up some time at 5:30 AM. Went out for a little drink of water and to use the bathroom. Jotted down some dream tags so I'll remember them in the morning. Then I went back to bed and did MILD again....
Back to Bed
I kept getting distracted while doing MILD... seeing images, hearing music, etc. But I resolved to keep MILDing... it has always helped me get to sleep normally too (like counting sheep minus the counting because counting makes you think way too much!).
BUT I COULDN'T SLEEP FOR THE LONGEST TIME. I'd feel my body start to vibrate as it prepares itself to paralyze.... but no matter what I do, I just couldn't get my mind to sleep. Also, I could easily break "the spell" by moving around a bit, and I did this very often that night, because I kept finding myself lying in uncomfortable positions and whatnot. Vibrations --> reset --> vibrations --> reset... this happened many many times. I got so sick and tired of it I didn't even want to be lucid anymore. I just wanted to freakin sleep because I'm tired and whatnot.
I was also HUNGRY, and COLD. I tried to stick it out and ignore the hunger. Then I suddenly had the idea to put on an extra blanket (it took me that long... genius...).... suddenly, after I got the blanket on and the temperature has improved and all...
SLEEP PARALYSIS STRIKES. Or at least, what I think is Sleep Paralysis. Please let me know if this is sleep paralysis!
Sleep Paralysis (?)
I heard my mom calling me to wake up. She said, "Wake up! Wake up!" But her voice was oddly distorted. I guess you can say it sounds kinda "demonic." Or, in music production terms... bitcrushed and vocoded. And distant yet close. My eyes were still closed. I felt freaked out for a second, then I noticed some intense vibrations going on in my head region. My body was vibrating, like it usually does right before I fall asleep... but at a much intenser intensity! I tried moving my arms and legs and found that I COULDN'T. Now, I'm not TOO sure how much I actually tried to move them. I get pretty lazy sometimes. But I'm pretty sure that it was more difficult than usual to move them. I never ended up moving them. I thought to myself, "Dang, this must be sleep paralysis then!" and then stop feeling freaked out at once. I then concentrated on falling deeper into sleep, the vibrations got even intenser. I heard my mom's demonic bitcrushed vocoded voice again.... "Come on, wake up!"
I started trying to open my dream eyes. Now THIS is where I'm unsure.... Was I really dreaming yet? Or was I just imagining things?
I tried to open my dream eyes and I saw my room in front of me. But the lighting was different. It was all yellow and warm and nice. Then I mentally forced myself to IMAGINE myself walking out of bed and into the hallway. But it was so realistic! I usually can't visualize very well in first person, but this was perfect... It was really dreamlike.
The only thing that made it seem strange to me was the fact that I was still aware of my physical real life body lying there. At the same time, I was aware of walking down the hallway.
Then before I had the chance to do much, it was time to wake up and get ready for school, and then I REALLY woke up.
I tried to slip back to sleep again and found that there were still some left over numbing sensations (but I can move again).
The end.
Does this count as sleep paralysis? The fact that I couldn't move is questionable because I really don't know how much I really tried. But take my mom's messed up voice into consideration... the buzzing, numbing sensations... and the dual awareness of my two bodies... I don't know, I'm pretty sure that was SP but I just want to be extra sure, since I've read around on how it's supposedly really rare, and I may as well just be experiencing REM Atonia or something like that.
Thanks! Sorry that was a pretty long post, but I would really appreciate any feedback! ^^
EDIT: No monsters or demons or anything of that sort... when I opened my eyes, the room was nice and safe. I kind of felt a presence, but not in my room. I felt people in the house in general, because when I'm awake, there are people in my house... in general. o_o I personally don't believe my dreams have anything to do with the spiritual world, nor do they take me to other dimensions. I think it's just something I experience in my own head, privately. So, free of cultural beliefs, I didn't experience anything traditionally "scary"... except for the bitcrushed vocoded mom voice.. but I expose myself to THAT pretty often when I'm making my music, haha. Just thinking "whoah, that's some messed up Daft Punk" takes away the fear. xD
So, I'm pretty sure it was SP. But just to be sure... here's how it went.
Sleep Prep
I was working on an essay for school, and spent till 10 PM finishing it up. Then I ate a whole banana (I heard it helps increase the vividness of dreams or whatever). Then I got into bed at around 11 PM.... I probably fell asleep sometime at 12 PM.
Sleep
So I slept. I was doing MILD... chanting "I want to have a lucid dream tonight!" to myself in my head, and before I knew it, I was asleep. I recall a pretty long dream (though it wasn't lucid).
Awakening
I woke up some time at 5:30 AM. Went out for a little drink of water and to use the bathroom. Jotted down some dream tags so I'll remember them in the morning. Then I went back to bed and did MILD again....
Back to Bed
I kept getting distracted while doing MILD... seeing images, hearing music, etc. But I resolved to keep MILDing... it has always helped me get to sleep normally too (like counting sheep minus the counting because counting makes you think way too much!).
BUT I COULDN'T SLEEP FOR THE LONGEST TIME. I'd feel my body start to vibrate as it prepares itself to paralyze.... but no matter what I do, I just couldn't get my mind to sleep. Also, I could easily break "the spell" by moving around a bit, and I did this very often that night, because I kept finding myself lying in uncomfortable positions and whatnot. Vibrations --> reset --> vibrations --> reset... this happened many many times. I got so sick and tired of it I didn't even want to be lucid anymore. I just wanted to freakin sleep because I'm tired and whatnot.
I was also HUNGRY, and COLD. I tried to stick it out and ignore the hunger. Then I suddenly had the idea to put on an extra blanket (it took me that long... genius...).... suddenly, after I got the blanket on and the temperature has improved and all...
SLEEP PARALYSIS STRIKES. Or at least, what I think is Sleep Paralysis. Please let me know if this is sleep paralysis!
Sleep Paralysis (?)
I heard my mom calling me to wake up. She said, "Wake up! Wake up!" But her voice was oddly distorted. I guess you can say it sounds kinda "demonic." Or, in music production terms... bitcrushed and vocoded. And distant yet close. My eyes were still closed. I felt freaked out for a second, then I noticed some intense vibrations going on in my head region. My body was vibrating, like it usually does right before I fall asleep... but at a much intenser intensity! I tried moving my arms and legs and found that I COULDN'T. Now, I'm not TOO sure how much I actually tried to move them. I get pretty lazy sometimes. But I'm pretty sure that it was more difficult than usual to move them. I never ended up moving them. I thought to myself, "Dang, this must be sleep paralysis then!" and then stop feeling freaked out at once. I then concentrated on falling deeper into sleep, the vibrations got even intenser. I heard my mom's demonic bitcrushed vocoded voice again.... "Come on, wake up!"
I started trying to open my dream eyes. Now THIS is where I'm unsure.... Was I really dreaming yet? Or was I just imagining things?
I tried to open my dream eyes and I saw my room in front of me. But the lighting was different. It was all yellow and warm and nice. Then I mentally forced myself to IMAGINE myself walking out of bed and into the hallway. But it was so realistic! I usually can't visualize very well in first person, but this was perfect... It was really dreamlike.
The only thing that made it seem strange to me was the fact that I was still aware of my physical real life body lying there. At the same time, I was aware of walking down the hallway.
Then before I had the chance to do much, it was time to wake up and get ready for school, and then I REALLY woke up.
I tried to slip back to sleep again and found that there were still some left over numbing sensations (but I can move again).
The end.
Does this count as sleep paralysis? The fact that I couldn't move is questionable because I really don't know how much I really tried. But take my mom's messed up voice into consideration... the buzzing, numbing sensations... and the dual awareness of my two bodies... I don't know, I'm pretty sure that was SP but I just want to be extra sure, since I've read around on how it's supposedly really rare, and I may as well just be experiencing REM Atonia or something like that.
Thanks! Sorry that was a pretty long post, but I would really appreciate any feedback! ^^
EDIT: No monsters or demons or anything of that sort... when I opened my eyes, the room was nice and safe. I kind of felt a presence, but not in my room. I felt people in the house in general, because when I'm awake, there are people in my house... in general. o_o I personally don't believe my dreams have anything to do with the spiritual world, nor do they take me to other dimensions. I think it's just something I experience in my own head, privately. So, free of cultural beliefs, I didn't experience anything traditionally "scary"... except for the bitcrushed vocoded mom voice.. but I expose myself to THAT pretty often when I'm making my music, haha. Just thinking "whoah, that's some messed up Daft Punk" takes away the fear. xD
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