Okay, so it has been a month since I seriously started learning Lucid Dreaming.
Before all of this a year ago I saw a video on Lucid Dreaming and I was really interested, but gave up quickly.
This time though, I have been keeping a dream journal every single day. I can remember what I dreamt about every single day if I thought about it.
The first few days I was doing beginner stuff like RCs and etc. I didn't want to WILD or anything like that, because of fear. Fear of SP. And then I joined DV. This changed everything.
I started with FILD and DEILD, but I was forgetting to do it in the morning. So I started WILDING during naps. It felt really close every single time. The first few tries I was actually scared because I have never experienced this before. It felt awesome even if I didn't. Floating, numbness, sinking, HI and so much other stuff. The first try felt really close.
When I WILD I usually put a blanket on top of my head or I put my hand to cover up any light. I was really wondering if my eyes should be hurting from staring at my closed eyelids, where should I keep my eyes? (Stare directly at the darkness or just look to the side like you usually do to fall asleep?) I still have no clear answer to this. I have no problem with staying in one place. Sometimes I have to swallow, or breathe hard instinctively. During my naps I also use guided meditation, which actually helps me relax.
I also have been wondering if I need to be in full paralysis to enter a dream? Since I read that full paralysis is not the goal.
Today was different. I went to bed at exactly 5:30 PM and put a guided meditation video (this one - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mcYHqugx4Xk). I put my hand on top of my eyes and relaxed while staring at the back of my eyelids. After like 10 min I started being sucked in by the darkness. But there was not a lot of HI. After that the blackness was moving and then some colors appeared - Purple and it was moving and it seemed to be forming something. I started feeling like I was spinning in circles and for some reason I tried expanding my field of vision and it increased. I was moving my eyes a lot. Thinking this is going to be it and stuff like that. After a while it completely disappeared. I was so let down. I felt my whole body fully paralyzing and I didn't want to bother with REM atonia, so I moved and broke out of the partial paralysis. I was really sad yet happy because this was the closest I have ever gotten. I have never formed any complex imagery through HI and that is bothering me and hurting my motivation a little bit. So I will keep trying every day.
Thank you for sticking with me. If you have some tips on reaching my goal, please share with me. I can't wait to experience my first lucid dream ever.
I feel like I will be overdoing it if start going around trying every technique.
Before all of this a year ago I saw a video on Lucid Dreaming and I was really interested, but gave up quickly.
This time though, I have been keeping a dream journal every single day. I can remember what I dreamt about every single day if I thought about it.
The first few days I was doing beginner stuff like RCs and etc. I didn't want to WILD or anything like that, because of fear. Fear of SP. And then I joined DV. This changed everything.
I started with FILD and DEILD, but I was forgetting to do it in the morning. So I started WILDING during naps. It felt really close every single time. The first few tries I was actually scared because I have never experienced this before. It felt awesome even if I didn't. Floating, numbness, sinking, HI and so much other stuff. The first try felt really close.
When I WILD I usually put a blanket on top of my head or I put my hand to cover up any light. I was really wondering if my eyes should be hurting from staring at my closed eyelids, where should I keep my eyes? (Stare directly at the darkness or just look to the side like you usually do to fall asleep?) I still have no clear answer to this. I have no problem with staying in one place. Sometimes I have to swallow, or breathe hard instinctively. During my naps I also use guided meditation, which actually helps me relax.
I also have been wondering if I need to be in full paralysis to enter a dream? Since I read that full paralysis is not the goal.
Today was different. I went to bed at exactly 5:30 PM and put a guided meditation video (this one - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mcYHqugx4Xk). I put my hand on top of my eyes and relaxed while staring at the back of my eyelids. After like 10 min I started being sucked in by the darkness. But there was not a lot of HI. After that the blackness was moving and then some colors appeared - Purple and it was moving and it seemed to be forming something. I started feeling like I was spinning in circles and for some reason I tried expanding my field of vision and it increased. I was moving my eyes a lot. Thinking this is going to be it and stuff like that. After a while it completely disappeared. I was so let down. I felt my whole body fully paralyzing and I didn't want to bother with REM atonia, so I moved and broke out of the partial paralysis. I was really sad yet happy because this was the closest I have ever gotten. I have never formed any complex imagery through HI and that is bothering me and hurting my motivation a little bit. So I will keep trying every day.
Thank you for sticking with me. If you have some tips on reaching my goal, please share with me. I can't wait to experience my first lucid dream ever.
I feel like I will be overdoing it if start going around trying every technique.
via Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views - Attaining Lucidity http://ift.tt/21iZuf2
No comments:
Post a Comment