Hello people, I am new here on Dreamviews. Nice to meet you all! :D
I will give some information about myself. I've been trying to have a LD for 1 month and a few weeks. I have a dream diary starting from 24th Jan till today (7th March). I do like 7 reality check on average. But I do them seriously. I do the fingers-through-palm, counting finger, and nose pinching checks. I have had a few dreams where I dreamt that I was lucid, but I actually wasn't (level 0 lucidity). In one of my many dreams I actually got up from my bed and performed some RCs. If I was lucid (I'm not sure, I will ask my question later), lucidity lasted for 5 seconds max. Then few days later, I dreamt that I knew I was lucid, I even said to myself that I am actually sleeping in my bed, BUT.. I wasn't lucid. All this happened a month ago. Recently, I dreamt that I woke up in the night and started to do the DEILD. Of course, I was sleeping. But it felt real. Now comes the main topic I guess.. :P
Today, I had some VERY long dreams, and they were vivid. I think it is so because I have incorporated the ADA technique.
So in one dream, I was just looking at a netted railing, when I slowly began to realize it is a dream. Slowly, but surely in like 4 seconds. It wasn't instantaneous. Then after becoming sure, I performed the nose RC and it obviously worked. HOWEVER, unlike what I've read, neither the dream came into focus, neither it felt real, nor I became excited. So this brings up my question: Was I lucid? (detailed later)
Next, after attaining 'lucidity' I began to search for one of my favourite fictional character: Saigusa Haruka (<3). Even though I know it is tough for a beginner like me to summon DCs, it was one of my ardent wishes to meet her. I tried to summon her behind me. I tried to expect her. But it didn't work. So, I saw around and saw a fork in the street. I ran toward it and I actually saw a girl with pinkish-purple hair (Haruka has purple hair). But it wasn't her. Someone else. I tried to ask who she was but she wouldn't reply. Just after she said, "Do you want to know my name?", I woke up. I couldn't even say anything. I did a RC, and it failed. I woke up in reality and I checked the time: 7:44 AM. The 'lucidity' lasted for like 20 secs. I though that it was too early to wake up plus I might have some longer dreams. So I slept again. Oh.. btw, I woke up earlier too, around 5 I guess. That time I did the MILD. That is the reason, I presume I was, if I was, lucid. Then after sleeping again, first time I had a false awakening. I did the nose RC and it of course worked. I don't know if I was lucid again, but I THINK if the RC works, I will definitely become lucid. Yet again, I tried to find Haruka. It was night outside, so I tried to make it day. It didn't work. And as soon as I was out, I woke up again... or so I felt. This 'dream' lasted for like 10 secs I did nose RC again, and it worked again :D. BUT, there were certain indications that highlight I wasn't lucid. This time I smartly first stabilized the dream by rubbing, spinning etc. A feeling of being 'vacuumed' in reality went away. Now, I actually went out of my home. Just for the sake of my curiosity, I tried the hand checking RC. My fingers didn't pass through my palm, but my hand was distorted- my index finger being as small as the pinky finger. And from night it became morning. I continued to search Haruka (I love her <3). THIS time, I found her. Like she is, no dupes etc. And she was crying. I found her suddenly behind me. I think I expected her. After some embracement, I woke up in real. This one lasted for around 45 secs.
So this was my story. Now comes the question and the doubts.
Question) Was I lucid anytime I mentioned?
[a] If I was, then it was a disappointing experience, contrary to what I have read (LD being one of the best experience in life). Is LD really what I experienced?
[b] If I wasn't, then why, even after performing RCs and trying to find a DC and actually find them, I wasn't lucid? Something I'm missing? I think this is the correct option. I also think I'm missing out the 'Eureka!' feeling.
Doubts
[When I feel I wasn't lucid]:
{i} No expected focus of dream world.
{ii} No expected 'vividity' and realism (but maybe that's because I've just started).
{iii} No 'Eureka!' feeling after reality checks.
{iv} No excitement --something that beginners experience.
{v} No 'best-experience-of-the-life' feeling.
{vi} A feeling of unreliability, like the dream could collapse anytime, and I would wake up. This especially happens when I am about to wake up. It's like the feeling when you are being pulled out of a dream. And it is very frustrating.
{vii} Everything felt automatic, especially, the part where I had a false awakening and I did the nose RC. I mean, why would I suddenly think of doing the RC?
{viii} I didn't have a logical sense during the dreams. I couldn't think clearly. I could only think of finding Haruka, even though I have planned to first stabilize the dream.
{ix} I felt 'alienish'. In other words, I didn't feel like myself, nor I felt walking around the dreams (nearly the same as ^).
{x} I didn't 'actually' wanted to find Haruka. It's something I have 'planned'. My actual desire is to explore the dream world first and possible talk to some DCs in my first lucid dream.
{xi} Couldn't make it day. If this is tough for beginners, cut this argument.
{xii} Dream was 'fuzzy' when I tried to remember it, like usual dreams.
{xiii} How can I suddenly have 3 LDs in a night? I mean, the probability is extremely low.
[When I feel I was lucid]:
{i} Successful reality checks.
{ii} Successfully summoned the DC I wanted, though it took time.
{iii} I wake up after expected lucid dream duration for beginners -60 secs max.
{iv} Recent ADA technique and more exhaustive RCs during the day (mentioned in Dreamviews tutorials) could have been successful for me.
As you can see, my doubts where I feel I wasn't lucid clearly outnumbers the doubts I feel I was lucid.
I'm sorry for the wall of text, but I want everything I feel could give the most accurate answer.
P.S. I nearly got a WILD unexpectedly a month before, but the hallucinations scared the sh*t out of me :/
I will give some information about myself. I've been trying to have a LD for 1 month and a few weeks. I have a dream diary starting from 24th Jan till today (7th March). I do like 7 reality check on average. But I do them seriously. I do the fingers-through-palm, counting finger, and nose pinching checks. I have had a few dreams where I dreamt that I was lucid, but I actually wasn't (level 0 lucidity). In one of my many dreams I actually got up from my bed and performed some RCs. If I was lucid (I'm not sure, I will ask my question later), lucidity lasted for 5 seconds max. Then few days later, I dreamt that I knew I was lucid, I even said to myself that I am actually sleeping in my bed, BUT.. I wasn't lucid. All this happened a month ago. Recently, I dreamt that I woke up in the night and started to do the DEILD. Of course, I was sleeping. But it felt real. Now comes the main topic I guess.. :P
Today, I had some VERY long dreams, and they were vivid. I think it is so because I have incorporated the ADA technique.
So in one dream, I was just looking at a netted railing, when I slowly began to realize it is a dream. Slowly, but surely in like 4 seconds. It wasn't instantaneous. Then after becoming sure, I performed the nose RC and it obviously worked. HOWEVER, unlike what I've read, neither the dream came into focus, neither it felt real, nor I became excited. So this brings up my question: Was I lucid? (detailed later)
Next, after attaining 'lucidity' I began to search for one of my favourite fictional character: Saigusa Haruka (<3). Even though I know it is tough for a beginner like me to summon DCs, it was one of my ardent wishes to meet her. I tried to summon her behind me. I tried to expect her. But it didn't work. So, I saw around and saw a fork in the street. I ran toward it and I actually saw a girl with pinkish-purple hair (Haruka has purple hair). But it wasn't her. Someone else. I tried to ask who she was but she wouldn't reply. Just after she said, "Do you want to know my name?", I woke up. I couldn't even say anything. I did a RC, and it failed. I woke up in reality and I checked the time: 7:44 AM. The 'lucidity' lasted for like 20 secs. I though that it was too early to wake up plus I might have some longer dreams. So I slept again. Oh.. btw, I woke up earlier too, around 5 I guess. That time I did the MILD. That is the reason, I presume I was, if I was, lucid. Then after sleeping again, first time I had a false awakening. I did the nose RC and it of course worked. I don't know if I was lucid again, but I THINK if the RC works, I will definitely become lucid. Yet again, I tried to find Haruka. It was night outside, so I tried to make it day. It didn't work. And as soon as I was out, I woke up again... or so I felt. This 'dream' lasted for like 10 secs I did nose RC again, and it worked again :D. BUT, there were certain indications that highlight I wasn't lucid. This time I smartly first stabilized the dream by rubbing, spinning etc. A feeling of being 'vacuumed' in reality went away. Now, I actually went out of my home. Just for the sake of my curiosity, I tried the hand checking RC. My fingers didn't pass through my palm, but my hand was distorted- my index finger being as small as the pinky finger. And from night it became morning. I continued to search Haruka (I love her <3). THIS time, I found her. Like she is, no dupes etc. And she was crying. I found her suddenly behind me. I think I expected her. After some embracement, I woke up in real. This one lasted for around 45 secs.
So this was my story. Now comes the question and the doubts.
Question) Was I lucid anytime I mentioned?
[a] If I was, then it was a disappointing experience, contrary to what I have read (LD being one of the best experience in life). Is LD really what I experienced?
[b] If I wasn't, then why, even after performing RCs and trying to find a DC and actually find them, I wasn't lucid? Something I'm missing? I think this is the correct option. I also think I'm missing out the 'Eureka!' feeling.
Doubts
[When I feel I wasn't lucid]:
{i} No expected focus of dream world.
{ii} No expected 'vividity' and realism (but maybe that's because I've just started).
{iii} No 'Eureka!' feeling after reality checks.
{iv} No excitement --something that beginners experience.
{v} No 'best-experience-of-the-life' feeling.
{vi} A feeling of unreliability, like the dream could collapse anytime, and I would wake up. This especially happens when I am about to wake up. It's like the feeling when you are being pulled out of a dream. And it is very frustrating.
{vii} Everything felt automatic, especially, the part where I had a false awakening and I did the nose RC. I mean, why would I suddenly think of doing the RC?
{viii} I didn't have a logical sense during the dreams. I couldn't think clearly. I could only think of finding Haruka, even though I have planned to first stabilize the dream.
{ix} I felt 'alienish'. In other words, I didn't feel like myself, nor I felt walking around the dreams (nearly the same as ^).
{x} I didn't 'actually' wanted to find Haruka. It's something I have 'planned'. My actual desire is to explore the dream world first and possible talk to some DCs in my first lucid dream.
{xi} Couldn't make it day. If this is tough for beginners, cut this argument.
{xii} Dream was 'fuzzy' when I tried to remember it, like usual dreams.
{xiii} How can I suddenly have 3 LDs in a night? I mean, the probability is extremely low.
[When I feel I was lucid]:
{i} Successful reality checks.
{ii} Successfully summoned the DC I wanted, though it took time.
{iii} I wake up after expected lucid dream duration for beginners -60 secs max.
{iv} Recent ADA technique and more exhaustive RCs during the day (mentioned in Dreamviews tutorials) could have been successful for me.
As you can see, my doubts where I feel I wasn't lucid clearly outnumbers the doubts I feel I was lucid.
I'm sorry for the wall of text, but I want everything I feel could give the most accurate answer.
P.S. I nearly got a WILD unexpectedly a month before, but the hallucinations scared the sh*t out of me :/
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